Sleep Issues and panic attack

So for the last couple of weeks most nights I wake up for 2 or more hours and can't fall back asleep, normally between 2am and 4am or so. So, I stopped taking naps, thinking that maybe I was getting too much sleep. But no, that didn't help, and made everything worse, because then I was only sleeping 5 hours a night or so, with no nap as well.

My doctor asks how I'm sleeping at every visit, so I think at next weeks visit I'll have to tell him, NOT good. Even with my two bodypillows and a comfy bed. My body is just not used to being this size, and it's getting much harder to stay comfortable! I'm not sure if he'll give me some drugs to help, or what. I have been on Ambien before. Oh, how I love Ambien. But I also know that your body builds an immunity to it, so it's not something I'd be able to continue to take for the next 3 months or so, because it will lose it's effectiveness after time.

Well, last night shortly before bed I started getting a headache behind my left eye. I didn't take anything, because I knew I'd be going to sleep soon and that hopefully sleep would make it go away. Well at 2 am I woke up and thought my eyeball was going to pop out of my head it hurt so bad!! My entire left side of my face hurt! I took my headache pill, but also some excedrin, because the pills they gave me don't work when the headaches are really bad (going to discuss that with Mr. Doctor as well next week).

Anyhow, the headache started to ease, but I didn't fall back asleep until sometime around 5am. But during that 3 hour period I started thinking of the babies coming, and my daughter, and just everything we still need (we still need EVERYTHING!) and being home with them, without any family help, and can I do it, etc. Thoughts, thoughts, thoughts running through my head. People constantly ask if I'm nervous or afraid, and I really am not, but I think it's because the reality hasn't hit me completely. I try NOT to worry about it, and just know I'll be taking it day by day and we'll get through it. But last nights worrying led to a panic attack. All of the sudden I felt like my lungs were being compressed by my ribs, I could take in any deep breathes, and started getting hot and sweaty. Ugh. Luckily it only lasted a few minutes. That is why I try not to think about the fact that we're going to have 4 kids, all under the age of 2, and we'll be living in Virginia, with absolutely no family there to give any help, in about 3-4 months time. If I think about it too much it is like a brick crushing my chest. I know we'll be fine. I know that there are single moms who raise triplets. I just need to NOT think about it.

Hopefully the sleep situation gets better, because I am feeling like crap most days now from lack of sleep! And I may as well sleep now before the babies come, because I know after that, there won't be much!